I was rereading some of my work to put up on Snippets of Story (check it out in the page bar at the top of the screen, by the way) and I had to go back 20 or 30 pages to find something decent. That makes me pretty insecure in my writing. We all know what insecurities in writing leads to. Yep, not writing.
Lately I've also been thinking about the quote "Every word on your blog is a word that isn't in your book."
And you know what? It should say "Every word that isn't on your blog isn't in your book either."
At least that's the way it feels to me right now. I don't think I've sat down seriously and wrote anything since before Christmas. I've wrote a couple odd blog posts and about 380 words in my story.
Yeah, not that impressive.
You know what the problem is? I have no idea where I'm going anymore. Well, that's lie. I do know how it's supposed to end, but I don't know what's supposed to happened in between. That is resulting in pure filler scenes that have pretty much no point. I came up with all these wonderful ideas and thought I wrote them down. I didn't though. It's funny because I say it to my writer friends, "write your ideas down!", but half the time I do not practice what I preach. AND when I do, it's usually written down rather poorly. A few words here, an arrow there. You get the picture. I realized that I don't write things down because I think "How could I ever forget this idea? It's amazing!", and yet here I am wondering how I fit all those ideas together before.
My plan of action?
-A major plot reworking.
-Setting aside time to write EVERYTHING down in a master plan
-Thinking about ideas while doing anything that doesn't take my full brain (showering, working, cleaning, taking the bus, laying in bed etc.)
-Carrying notebooks with me to jot down ideas as they come
So am I insecure about my writing today? Obviously, but hey, it keeps me humble and forces me to get my but in gear.
Happy writing everyone!